Thursday, November 17, 2011


This is not what i expected . Firstly , i thought that its kinda cute and funny when i know that the junior likes me for quite some times , around 2 semester ago . Recently , i heard more than one info about he likes me , 3 of girls told me and asked me the same question , do i like him ? what you feel ? will you like him ? After seeing him ,what did you feel ? what is this ?! i can still keep this as like " i dont know anything" . i can handle some of it but recently just because he's getting to be nice or close to me , i try to reject in a good way because i dont have the feeling of liking him and i dont wanna hurt him also FOR THE SAKE OF GOD !  WHAT IS THIS ? The burden is getting heavier after i heard one of the girl told me more about him , feeling gloomy because he scare he might lose me ? what is this :( Then this girl asked me again , do you like him ? ALL I CAN SAY , PLEASE STOP ASKING ME ..
I really wish i can have my bestie here , to drive me around like nobody business :)

If really wanna talk about it , i can say , he's a good guy , last time my friends asked me "if" he likes you and now , FOR THE SAKE OF GOD ! he do really likes me :T for what i know , he likes me since 2 semesters ago. Now i keep on wondering , what does he like about me ? Its like having a dramatic scene here =.= i hate this .. But i wanna say i dont hate him , the junior , i just dislike ppl keep on asking me the same thing . Just because of i wanna graduate soon , so these kind of questions ask by these 3 girls. After knowing all these, i still keep this emotion in me and dont wanna show it out .. so everything will be smooth and stupid thing was, i didnt expect i just hurt him ? and funny thing was, i feel guilty ?! WTHeck   is this ? The reason that why he upset , i already knew , its kinda sweet for what he did , although its kinda clumsy too ? Well . . totally no comment about it . F ! hmph ! Ugh ! Trying to be okay and scare to hurt ppl . End up , like i am the one in INSANE mode soon .  

This is not what i want but i dont want to hurt him too :T
stupid burden , kinda tiring . 
I hope i can find a good answer :) Let's go with the flow , Shall I ? :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Notice . I've heard it "Notice me" by David Archuleta haha ! Amazingly i like it :)
Well , i have no idea why i wanna update this . There's one time , i was in boring mode , until i texted my friend ~ The funny part was he said It's kinda stupid to fall in love with a kid . Haha ! This kid is super duper adorable :) i like this kid a lot LOL . Hmm .. quite some times i didnt see him , kinda miss him :T

Oh anyway , another guy haha ! 
Recently my college , we had organize an event named KCC GOT TALENT , it's also like a Halloween party :) So i dressed like a witch but a young witch LOL . I didnt notice or observed about one thing , my junior , during that night , i was in charge of leading the guest to their seats , while waiting the guest to arrive .. My junior suddenly looked at me and said , you're pretty [ hmm... Unexpected SHY ] >"< Whao . . Then i looked at him and said thank you :) It was kinda busy day . After everything done with the event , suddenly i think back about what he(junior) said , hmm.... kinda UNEXPECTED HUH 0.o 
About this junior of mine , it's my first time same semester with juniors although we can normally met in corridor or have lunch break together , and the girls(juniors as well) they like to play with him and i can say , it's noisy ="= and super loud ! huh.. me myself ~ either take a nap or just sit there look at them go insane 0.o crazy juniors .. he also can be insane with the girls but not for me :D GLADLY ! Suddenly a crazy guy like him can suddenly told me that i'm pretty 0.o it's a surprised . 

Talked about last week , my lecturer suddenly said that she missed my fringe and i said i think i'm gonna cut it or just leave it haha ! Then she said , some of us miss your fringe and its look good on you too . Then i asked who's us that you said ? and she also said .. he likes it because its kinda cute 0.0'' [ crap ] Then i asked , who's that ?! She just said , try you observe yourself . . Ugh i'm getting lazy to do so ~do i need to observe or notice 0.o

Then this evening , suddenly my friends talked about this him[junior] , yeah he actually like one of the girl .. but only some of them know about it , the girl name start with "S" and she's from KCC too . i was driving at that time and i suddenly STUNNED 0.o huh ..

what do you think ? Haha .. it freaks me out , again , then my friends said no wonder why you suddenly gone quiet in the car LOL ! Then they started with the topic : If he's really like you , how will you think of him ? OMG ! i never think of it ="=

Haha what do you think ? oh well . . This topic ends here :)